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kukla_tkoMy stepmother's father passed away on Saturday.
Now, I didn't know him well, so it's not like I lost another grandparent. (Though, I kind of did, huh?)
When he and my stepmom' mom moved into an assisted care facility, I "inherited" some furniture and things. The new, gorgeous bookcase holding my doll stuff, for example. A shop vac. The awesome luggage I've gotten TONS of use out of over the last year.
Plus, I know that this devastates my stepmom. Her BOARDS are on Saturday, and she has to go to the wake and funeral on Thursday and Friday. I'd love to be there for her, but I can't afford any more time off of work.
But I called her today to chat, and we were able to talk for a few minutes.
I wonder if this year's "card" is the death card, in that sweeping changes are happening. Most of you know that this is the year that my S.O. returns home, which means big upheavals in my world. (Not bad ones, mind you, but change is change whether it is negative or positive or both.)
Two deaths, my stepmom takes her boards and starts her new career as a doctor down in southern Missouri, my father and my stepmom buying a new house down there and moving, the list goes on. I have friends who are contemplating changing their jobs and their relationship configurations. (Not the same friends for both things, of course.)
I've put my feet down and I'm not going to do anything about my own employment situation until after my S.O. returns home and the dust settles. So that's likely to be next year at the earliest, but I'm becoming disenchanted with my situation. I love my job, I really do. I love teaching, I love talking to people about sewing, I love selling machines, and I love helping people. I love the company I work for.
However, there are some things that make my life more difficult, and things like my schedule not having two days off in a row except in a rare while, coming home with a headache from dealing with a particular coworker (and her shrill, little girl sing song voice, and pure dumbf*ckery), and event on top of event on top of event.
I don't actually do well at the M-F 9-5 routine, though, so the (potential) flexibility of a retail schedule has its advantages. (So long as someone sane and competent is making it up.)
So it's not like I want to go out and get an office job.
On the other hand, I recently had someone throw something my direction that might actually be a good fit for my skill set, with interesting new challenges (but not increasingly difficult ones) and benefits.
Perhaps the idea of a new position would be the fulcrum I need to arrange things the way I want them at work?
Problem is, this time "more money" is not my objective. This time I'm frustrated with a coworker, and if I get her fired I'd be forced to replace her.
I most certainly do not want that.
I'm going to go stretch out in my bed now. This cough I'm fighting has a rattle to it that I do not like.
Now, I didn't know him well, so it's not like I lost another grandparent. (Though, I kind of did, huh?)
When he and my stepmom' mom moved into an assisted care facility, I "inherited" some furniture and things. The new, gorgeous bookcase holding my doll stuff, for example. A shop vac. The awesome luggage I've gotten TONS of use out of over the last year.
Plus, I know that this devastates my stepmom. Her BOARDS are on Saturday, and she has to go to the wake and funeral on Thursday and Friday. I'd love to be there for her, but I can't afford any more time off of work.
But I called her today to chat, and we were able to talk for a few minutes.
I wonder if this year's "card" is the death card, in that sweeping changes are happening. Most of you know that this is the year that my S.O. returns home, which means big upheavals in my world. (Not bad ones, mind you, but change is change whether it is negative or positive or both.)
Two deaths, my stepmom takes her boards and starts her new career as a doctor down in southern Missouri, my father and my stepmom buying a new house down there and moving, the list goes on. I have friends who are contemplating changing their jobs and their relationship configurations. (Not the same friends for both things, of course.)
I've put my feet down and I'm not going to do anything about my own employment situation until after my S.O. returns home and the dust settles. So that's likely to be next year at the earliest, but I'm becoming disenchanted with my situation. I love my job, I really do. I love teaching, I love talking to people about sewing, I love selling machines, and I love helping people. I love the company I work for.
However, there are some things that make my life more difficult, and things like my schedule not having two days off in a row except in a rare while, coming home with a headache from dealing with a particular coworker (and her shrill, little girl sing song voice, and pure dumbf*ckery), and event on top of event on top of event.
I don't actually do well at the M-F 9-5 routine, though, so the (potential) flexibility of a retail schedule has its advantages. (So long as someone sane and competent is making it up.)
So it's not like I want to go out and get an office job.
On the other hand, I recently had someone throw something my direction that might actually be a good fit for my skill set, with interesting new challenges (but not increasingly difficult ones) and benefits.
Perhaps the idea of a new position would be the fulcrum I need to arrange things the way I want them at work?
Problem is, this time "more money" is not my objective. This time I'm frustrated with a coworker, and if I get her fired I'd be forced to replace her.
I most certainly do not want that.
I'm going to go stretch out in my bed now. This cough I'm fighting has a rattle to it that I do not like.
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Date: 2015-04-23 05:23 am (UTC)The potential new thing someone threw at you, even if you understandably aren't pursuing it right away, sounds exciting, I'd love to hear more next time we hang out.
Take care of yourself and I hope things go in the direction you want them to.