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Jun. 10th, 2012 10:03 amAs usual, the Paganic is the hottest weekend of the year (or at least, it feels like it is.) I think this was our smallest group of cards ever, but small readings are just as meaningful. We acknowledged The Dragon in this year's Living Tarot and The Dragon graced us with its presence and wisdom.
One of the things that the Living Tarot has taught me over the years is that I just need to take what comes and move forward from that position. I can't stress out over it, I can't obsess about problems that arise and people who flake out on me. So yes, it was small and yes, several people flaked out on me. I'm not bothered by it. I'm only commenting to remind the crowd at large that despite my having flown into a rage about it in the past, I am NOT bothered by it, except for that tiny stab of disappointment that some of my friends missed the fun. When I invite all of you to play with me, and some of you don't come out and play, I miss you. This is radically different from my being pissed off that you broke your word to me or failed to help me earn some money. There's no money in this, just a chance to shine. We were very shiny.
When we first started doing this, I wanted a full set of Major Arcana. I only ever achieved that once, so I'm not going to let it freak me out when we work with a smaller group.
The purpose of the event is to encourage local artists to come and participate and to bring their own unique perspective to each card and meaning. We've often recruited from the crowd, we've met great new friends, and we all learn more from each card with each voice that speaks.
Will I ever quit doing it? Only when it ceases to make me happy. At that point I might give my props away to someone else to take it over, or I might simply quit and walk away entirely.
Speaking of things that make me happy...
Be aware that I am having to do some reorganization in my head, my house, and my surroundings. Be aware that you and I might have an intimate conversation. This does not mean, "WE NEED TO TALK!" just that I'm still adjusting to my situation and I'm trying to keep my sanity during these interesting times. Choosing the healthiest path is hard work and requires constant vigilance. I've been slacking off, so be aware that there are changes happening.
Some of you are going to notice the changes and say, "there you are! I've been missing the Kukla!" Some of you are going to notice the changes and obsess over what you did wrong. Hint: This is SO not about you. Some of you are going to notice the changes and are going to want to be helpful kitties; All I ask is that you listen to what I have to say and take me at my word.
The cards have spoken to me this year, and here is the public version of their message for me:
Draw power from the Dragon, ye Tiger. You have only just begun to understand your own potential.
The Cosmic Fool reminds me this time to reconnect with all my fools and learn what they have to teach me. It also reminds me (again) to connect with my own foolishness, my own whimsy and cheerful disposition, even when dancing on the edge of a cliff. The Fool reminds me that we never really cease being the Fool.
The Emperor reminds me that structure is necessary to build, so while I'm busy being silly and whimsical, I also need to be discovering the places where structure is necessary. Boundaries are important. Rules must be set and adhered to. Once the structure is set, we can play!
Some of the cards did not bring new wisdom, but being reminded of their age-old wisdom reminds me to trust my own wisdom.
So, Too long/didn't read? Change is coming. It is good change. Embrace it with me.
One of the things that the Living Tarot has taught me over the years is that I just need to take what comes and move forward from that position. I can't stress out over it, I can't obsess about problems that arise and people who flake out on me. So yes, it was small and yes, several people flaked out on me. I'm not bothered by it. I'm only commenting to remind the crowd at large that despite my having flown into a rage about it in the past, I am NOT bothered by it, except for that tiny stab of disappointment that some of my friends missed the fun. When I invite all of you to play with me, and some of you don't come out and play, I miss you. This is radically different from my being pissed off that you broke your word to me or failed to help me earn some money. There's no money in this, just a chance to shine. We were very shiny.
When we first started doing this, I wanted a full set of Major Arcana. I only ever achieved that once, so I'm not going to let it freak me out when we work with a smaller group.
The purpose of the event is to encourage local artists to come and participate and to bring their own unique perspective to each card and meaning. We've often recruited from the crowd, we've met great new friends, and we all learn more from each card with each voice that speaks.
Will I ever quit doing it? Only when it ceases to make me happy. At that point I might give my props away to someone else to take it over, or I might simply quit and walk away entirely.
Speaking of things that make me happy...
Be aware that I am having to do some reorganization in my head, my house, and my surroundings. Be aware that you and I might have an intimate conversation. This does not mean, "WE NEED TO TALK!" just that I'm still adjusting to my situation and I'm trying to keep my sanity during these interesting times. Choosing the healthiest path is hard work and requires constant vigilance. I've been slacking off, so be aware that there are changes happening.
Some of you are going to notice the changes and say, "there you are! I've been missing the Kukla!" Some of you are going to notice the changes and obsess over what you did wrong. Hint: This is SO not about you. Some of you are going to notice the changes and are going to want to be helpful kitties; All I ask is that you listen to what I have to say and take me at my word.
The cards have spoken to me this year, and here is the public version of their message for me:
Draw power from the Dragon, ye Tiger. You have only just begun to understand your own potential.
The Cosmic Fool reminds me this time to reconnect with all my fools and learn what they have to teach me. It also reminds me (again) to connect with my own foolishness, my own whimsy and cheerful disposition, even when dancing on the edge of a cliff. The Fool reminds me that we never really cease being the Fool.
The Emperor reminds me that structure is necessary to build, so while I'm busy being silly and whimsical, I also need to be discovering the places where structure is necessary. Boundaries are important. Rules must be set and adhered to. Once the structure is set, we can play!
Some of the cards did not bring new wisdom, but being reminded of their age-old wisdom reminds me to trust my own wisdom.
So, Too long/didn't read? Change is coming. It is good change. Embrace it with me.
